Bursts of Energy

Woke up with a headache this morning.

Makes sense, considering I took the day off yesterday and played Sea of Thieves for ten straight hours sitting on a wooden chair. I realized I also hadn’t drunk much water. Filled up my water bottle, drank a little. Took my morning pee, sure enough, super dark yellow.

(Anybody have a better casual word for urine? Urine is weirdly, like, formal, while pee sounds like an elementary schooler trying to avoid a dirty word, and piss is just too vulgar for me for some reason. Guess that makes me an elementary schooler trying to avoid a dirty word. Also a little weird because piss is the older of the two terms. Usually the older term is the less vulgar.) (reading through my post a second time I’m thinking “taking a leak” will be a strong contender.)

I down one, then two, then three bottles of water. My stomach hurts, I’m still thirsty. I’m also suuuuper hungry, but I only have a bag of tilapia which I’ve been frying and eating out of a mug. My diet has consisted solely of tilapia and the hot chocolate packets my RA’s left on our door. I’m out of the hot chocolate after yesterday. It’s Sunday, but I’m gonna need to buy food today. Sorry God, thank You for understanding. Crap, it’s fast Sunday. But I can survive til 5pm and break a fast. (Even if I’ve been drinking water all morning.) I need to fast and ask for God’s help with . . . well, everything.

I should write a blog about this.

You know the mornings you wake up feeling . . . slow? That was me the day before last. I just couldn’t think quickly, couldn’t organize what I needed to do that day. Was so tired but couldn’t keep sleeping. The previous six days I had been Incredibly Productive™ and nearly set up an entire business. Technically I did set up an entire business in 6 days, but the website wasn’t done. Still isn’t, actually. (But will be shortly)

I have this theory about how I work in bursts of energy.

Consistency is the most difficult thing for me. Unfortunately, according to the self-help and financial authors of the day, consistency is also the number one, above all, bar none, MOST important component to living a successful life.

Fantastic.

All these authors and experts in their field saying to do their tips and tricks EVERY DAY for 10 years to be successful and happy. Here I am, able to maniacally design and implement a business, sourcing manufacturers, researching markets, structuring taxes and financials, designing a voice and brand to surround a product — in 6 days. Then I wake up one morning and it’s just like, “meh”.

I did just find a quote by Oscar Wild that reads “Consistency is the hallmark of the unimaginative.” So take that, I guess.

Well, my very imaginative mind was slow on Friday morning. I try to let myself recharge when I get like that, rather than pushing through and making things worse. It’s some sort of effort to be kind to myself and also work with my work style rather than against it. Maybe someday I’ll be consistent. In the meantime, I’ll just do 8 times more in a week than the average person, then go braindead for a few days.

(Yes, I should learn to balance this. No, that’s not what I’m working on right now.)